XC no more

This arrived in the mail a few days ago

It's a testament to my change in riding style. I can now say that I'm more of an AM rider rather than a pure XC rider.

I know it might seem a bit drastic or hardcore but hey, my face and the grey matter in my head is worth protecting. Customised the helmet with a couple of stickers.

At the very least the helmet doesn't really look out of place on my new bike.

I'm slowly gonna upgrade this bike over the course of the year when I start my internship. Hoping for a new fork, crank, brakes and wheelset

Cannot Rideeeeee

Well this week so far hasn't been all that great. Have been to the trails several times and I think it's a relatively nice place. That is until I madea mess out of myself and my bike. Just look;

Broken stem, taco'ed wheel. The crash was pretty bad I admit. On the bright side, at least I wasn't that badly injured. I don't think I'll be able to cycle for a while

Rideeee

It's been close to a year and finally Tampines Trail has reopened. Really felt as though I found a long lost part of me when I went for a ride there just now. Made some new friends there. I guess all of that's good after everything I've been through. I'd like to think that things are looking up

Hate is a strong word

It's not often anyone sees me in this state. A total wreck. My sanity has been tested to the point of tears. All however is not lost as tears transformed into a spell of hysterical laughter. This is not how things will end up for me as this is merely the start of my beautiful triumph. I will rise from the ashes and get my blood money. Mark my words, I will be the one to rub dirt in your faces

Out of Sight

What is the price to pay to be your own individual? Why is there such thing as a social norm when certainly everyone is different. What does it take to be an invisible person, someone who others doesn't bother. Is it possible for one to be erased off everyone's minds?

The world is a beautiful place but there's always two sides of a coin. There's nothing wrong with living in an imaginary world but one can never survive long doing so. Wouldn't it be great if that imaginary world turns to reality.

I just want to run. Run away from dastardly world that I'm stuck in. I need to stay far away from this plague of menace that is slowly engulfing me. Call me a coward for wanting to run for all I care. I'm not gonna stay and die a slow painful death.

They say that the grass is greener on the other side. I'm willing to give that a shot

Run Lola Run

I've totally given up on Tumblr. I don't even recall when was my last post there. That is if I even had any proper posts there in the first place. I never really had a use for Tumblr so it's not a loss but yeah there are some interesting blogs on Tumblr so I guess I might drop in there once in a while to see what's what.

I'm really starting to get serious on my training regime. Covered 44km on my bike a couple of days ago. My timing for that wasn't exactly great but if you take into consideration that it was a warm up ride and that I was affected by traffic, it isn't too bad. I basically got trashed by this pak cik (Malay uncle) who cycles and average of 40-50 klicks daily and was telling me about his 120km ride the day before. It amazes me how someone at his age (50) can achieve such things when there are plenty of 18 year olds out there who are put off by the very idea of going out to exercise.

On another note, I just completed a 4.5km run. I'm really amazed with myself. Out of nowhere I suddenly managed to double my usual distance. Weirdly I felt less tired running 4.5km as compared to running just 2. While I was running, I somehow felt like pushing on and to outdo myself. The feeling was just amazing. It did reminded me about this article on the net about how this guy one day managed to run much more than he usually did and the more he ran, the less tired he became. I guess this is a start for many great things to come for me.

Shady's back, tell a friend

It's been 10 months since I last posted anything here. One of the reason why I've suddenly decided to post something here is that I don't think anyone really reads this blog anymore. Basically this blog started off as something private. A place where I can pen down my observation and thought without worrying about people I know judging me. I've come to a realisation that tumblr is basically stupid and twitter is filled with stupid people. I mean how much thought does anyone put in when they churn out a 140 character post complaining about the most insignificant things. And seriously it doesn't take much to take a crappy photo off the net, slap on some irrelevant caption and post it multiple times.

Whatever happened to the days when people actually bothered to take the time to think and write out something that is really important? Is society really moving that fast to warrant a restriction on how people's thoughts can only be restricted to a mere 140 characters? It's tragic that majority of posts on such websites have neither quality nor quantity. I'm not saying that my posts here are top notch but at the very least I put in real effort to write all of this.

I've perused through old posts in this blog and I've come to realise how much things have changed in just a year. Back then, I was a very simple person with few needs and desires. I was actually happy with the way my life was and I nothing bothered me at all. Unfortunately I wasn't forward looking and the mistakes I've made probably ruined everything. Being in a good Junior College was probably one of the best things to have happened to me but being the lazy arse that I was, I had to drop out. Big mistake. I just ruin things for myself really.

That's not the only thing that bothers me. I never appreciated what mattered most to me until I lost it. I guess that's just the way humans work. It's the little things that matter the most such as friends and it takes a lot to fix things once they go wrong. If I could turn the clock back, I would be in a totally different place. Sure I might be a square and close minded, but I would most definitely be a much better person.